i can feel my brain breaking
it’s beginning to buzz and false fire synapses
i’m going completely fucking mad as it happens
and i’m helpless, i don’t really give a shit either
i wouldn’t be buzzing so violently
if hadn’t kept myself awake
for the last 72 hours
doing drugs of assorted strengths
i can really feel my brain really breaking though
right at the seems
i can finally see inside my skull
and it must be because it’s the beginning of the end
the final euphoric eye roll
staring at my own mind malfunction
the grey matter finally a dull lifeless grey
a dusty concrete that housed memories
long long ago
i can feel my brain breaking
my hands shaking
my whole fucking body quaking at the horror
of my own awful self induced nightmare
it’s amazing
i can actually see my brain breaking
my eyes darting
my vision blurry
it’s starting to make me worry if this is it
catatonic cataracts and acid flashbacks
my ears only hear music, even in the absence of it
so when i can hear, the rhythm, of my breaking brain
it must be all my memories scaling the walls
and pounding the pavement that cemented
my self identity, crumbling around me
and my brain hears it as a song
the buzzing, i heard it all along
but it soon stops and i’ll drop
and my brain will be on display,
pouring out my mouth all over the ground,
leaking out my ears and eyes all wide open and dry
my head, like a hole, will be but pounded skull
and my grey tissue will look like
illusively slippery sidewalk
and people too stupid to see the rest of me and slip
might, with a little luck
hit themselves so fucking hard
that they’ll hear their brain buzzing
and their eyes will blur