FallingAwake2

Ghost Girl

Here, I’m still waiting on the rising,

But again, I go fading out of sight.

I guess, to you, it must be surprising,

How I was gone before sparks ignite.

Blowing- free flowing- in your direction,

Cut short by a sudden change in wind,

Gusts trade vision with my projection.

Reversing in confusion- now I rescind.

For it’s you who holds my attention,

But by a selfish means of protection,

Had me leaving before a storm began.

I can see I was creating a rejection

But there really wasn’t even a plan.

My patterns of impulse and projection

Regrettably have led to your doubt,

And damage to a wholesome connection.

I admit- I reeled you in, I spit you out.

But I didn’t mean to be deceiving-

I’m just a little abandoned and abused

Was never good with people leaving,

Sorry I left you bruised and confused.