She blinks up at me
From down by my feet.
She changed me.
Take a big breath in every time I speak
So I don’t hate me.
Well the secrets out,
I let nothing in
So she gets low.
She reminds me how
I have been
Cuz I don’t know.
My eyes stay the same
While the rest of me changes,
But you can see the strain
By the way my face is.
I’ve kicked her out
Time and time again,
She has no master.
I run and run as fast as I can,
But she runs faster.
She’s every second of everyday
Until I run out.
There’s just too many numbers I have to say
For me to count.
I swear I’d let her hurt me,
I swear upon my life,
I swear I’d let her kill me
Or at least I’d let her try.
I swear her claws are in deep,
Down to the bone.
I swear if you go near her
Your life won’t be your own.
Your life won’t be your own,
And neither will your body,
And neither will your soul.