This chaos inside me.
Doubt and losses, the fear within me.
Memories closing and terror surrounds me.
Slowly drift away the demons inside me.
These dark thoughts that dwell inside me.
Sounds of stillness;
As I try to quiet the darkness;
No hope no fear,
As it hallows me back to my darkness.
I hear it\'s cackles like a beastly Jackal;
I feel the weight of it\'s shackles;
It\'s seductive voice
Ready for Battle.
voices I hear;
whispering to me all my fears;
Stirs unwelcomed strain inside me;
It\'s deviant alluring and calmness within;
Has me strapped down again.
No one sees this;
No one can hear it;
Its shadow lingers and torture begins.
This defiant black abyss inside of me.
Black are my eyes;
My minds beaten;
Darkness it hides;
Which I call a demon.
Dark as the night;
No longer sunlight;
I am not afraid;
And I will fight;
Black is this world;
That I live in;
And ringing darkness;
That I\'m kept in.
Ripples of terror shelters me;
Standing silently inside of me.
My minds thoughts reflect;
My reality to disconnect;
As if the Awakening anguish that plagues and torments my thoughts no longer stay dormant.
It\'s depriving my sweetness;
My blind protest;
Deep despair with dulling grotesque;
Heavy on my chest.
Sends a dart of cruel images;
Vanishing grim of fleeting existence.
Suffering thoughts enable ones mind;
I give no resistance.
Swirled are these thoughts;
No longer mine;
Lost forever in space and time.
A sense of wrongness, fright, and unease;
This evil tension inside of me.
Pouring of transcendent energy;
Governed by enlightenment;
Abyss of darkness;
Forever inside me.
I awaken inside;
I Battle this demon for what is mine;
My darkest moments;
I am fighting it everyday,
To forever have Peace, Normality, and light.
Mandy Jolly 2/22/22