I just sit here and stare at a computer screen
Wondering what life means
I dream of all these beautiful and exciting things
While I\'m too scared to go out and do one fucking bit of it
How the hell is some self-conscious little lazy shit like me supposed to become anything?
I\'m not satisfied with becoming a nobody
But it\'s inevitable
I told myself awhile ago that if I have to become a nobody
Then I\'d like to be a nobody that I could be proud of
Frankly, I just don\'t think that\'s possible
Other times I wonder
What if I conquered the entire fucking world?
I still wouldn\'t be satisfied
Because it wasn\'t the entire universe
But should I let that stop me from trying?
I have no clue anymore
Maybe if I spent less time just fucking sitting here
on my lazy ass
I\'d be happier with myself
and my life
and those around me
I\'d be less depressed
If I actually made a fucking change
But change takes effort and a certain willingness
And I can\'t find it
I don\'t even know where to look