Wanting to love again
but am so dam scared.
My past often haunts me
I thought back then,
that they cared.
Guarding my heart
even though I want to feel,
my emotions
I keep to myself.
My love and devotion
is something,
I want to conceal.
Longing for someone
to just hold me,
in their arms.
But as soon
as I think of it,
here comes all the alarms.
Fighting with myself
I do,
then I don\'t
I know love is,
just something
that is no good,
for my health.
When your heart
has been broken,
and you have cried
so many tears.
Some part of yourself
just simply disappears.
Many have tried
but I just make an excuse.
Am not,
going to let my heart
take no more abuse.
So deep inside me
I know truly,
I will stand alone.
Maybe love
just ain\'t for me,
because it cuts
right down to the bone.
I guess
I will always,
crave that real true love.
Is this how
it all will end,
forever fighting myself.
When will my heart,
Finally mend.