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If Only You Would Have Let Me Be

I wonder how different my life would have been

If you weren\'t a daddy full of gin

Instead of playing dress up and rocking my baby doll

I stood still listening for steps coming down the hall

Your tobacco hand and breath of beer

My mind went blank as I filled with fear

Tossing and tumbling woke me tangled in sheets

As I awoke you told me \"it\'s ok go back to sleep\"

Do you know how many days I felt total doom

For nothing I did, just you in my room

Your story told a tale of a secret that remains

For many years you let me carry the shame

I was always a confused young girl, you never cared

Never felt well around you, to ask I didn\'t dare

I made a anxious young wife never knew why

A over protective mother always wanting to cry

Do you care about my sorrow and layers of pain

What a needless question, it\'s all about your gain

I wonder what it feels like to be normal and care free

I would have had a chance if only you would have let me be