How can I want to be dead and alive at the same time?
how can I feel everything and nothing all at once.
why am I so happy but so sad?
why does my heart feel full but my soul empty.
why do I have good days and bad days Why do the good days feel good but the bad evil.
why don\'t I have faith but believe in everything?
why am I afraid of everything but not myself;my own worst enemy.
why does the fear of dying stop me from living I\'m not living, i\'m simply existing.
how can I find myself when i don\'t think I want to be found.
what if I don\'t want to find myself because I won\'t like what i find.
how can I care so much but not at all.
how do you end it without \'ending\' it.
everyday I live;I die.
why do I want a fairy tale when that\'s all it is?
why is the mind so toxic;so hard to escape.
why mental health;why me.
why not death.
why not peace?why not sanity.
my babies;i\'m alive for my babies.
they deserve better.