We\'ve been friends for a year now
But suddenly it feels like we\'re meeting each other for the very first time
The everyday in-depth conversations
The exciting and bonding video chats
The fun and exciting phone calls
Are now non-existent
They have been replaced with a one day a week check in
Which consists of lots of small talk and no depth, sincerity, or passion
Why does everything have to be so diluted and watered down?
The bond we used to have was so strong, energetic, and unbreakable
But now that bond is weak, lethargic, and crumbling apart
We\'re tearing apart at the seams, and I don\'t know how to sew us back together
Why do we have to only scratch the surface when we\'ve been digging deep and uncovering all the beauty that lies within our relationship?
The layers and walls have been peeled away and knocked down, and we had built a sturdy foundation; why do we need to fill all the cracks and shovel all the dirt over what\'s been uncovered?
I know our friendship is going through changes, but it\'s all for the best
You and I both know that
But my heart is breaking
And my soul is shattering
I can feel you pulling away
I can feel the intense distance between us
It\'s like I\'m the Sun and you\'re Neptune
My heart is warm, radiating love, compassion, and understanding
While your heart is cold, blasting out anger, betrayal, and abandonment
We\'re on completely different planets
And I\'m afraid, so very afraid
I feel like I\'m losing you
Am I losing you?
Why are you treating me like you barely know me?
No, even worse; like you don\'t trust me
But I\'ll admit, at times I\'ve felt bitter and cold too, but my heart still knows you
My heart still trusts you
Even though I\'m feeling your icy breeze and the cold on my shoulder, my heart still warms up inside;
When I picture your cute, goofy grin
When I build with the Legos you bought me
When I hear a song that reminds me of you
When I remember all the encouragement and support you\'ve breathed into my life
That\'s how I know you are still trustworthy
That\'s how I know you aren\'t completely frozen inside
You\'re just slushy
Your trust in me currently is sludgy
So please, let me help solidify and warm your heart so it can heal from the wounds I\'ve unintentionally opened up and build trust with you again
I\'m disappointed and confused, honestly
Because when I said I needed space, I didn\'t mean I wanted you to move out of our harmonious orbit
I simply meant I need some time in the Milky Way so I can figure out my way
What ever happened to friendship planet?
I think it must be have crashed landed into the darkness of the Black Hole and can\'t find a way out, back into the light of the Sun
-Devorah F. Pleva