Though I stay up deep in the nights darkness
As I try to grasp the blow death delt me
Upper cutting my innocence of grief and
Opening the gates of sorrow and leaving me paranoid
As to when and where the next blow lands
I bet this time it will be a kick and it will find me down
Still reeling from the shock of the first blow
Trying to feel my numb jaws, trying to focus my eyes from the stars
But maybe I am the blow waiting to be delivered to my loved ones
I shudder at the thought but life is a game of cards you never know what you\'re delt.
I think of my dad sometimes, its painful to do it all the time
I take small chunks of my memories of him and introspect
Trying to relive, trying to go back in time to enjoy the memory one more time
I feel sadness and loneliness engulf me
I\'m left paralyzed with despair and hopelessness
Maybe the light of day will bring forth light as I only see darkness