I don’t want to loose this life
Make excuses
Fake a smile
Wake up and get on with it.
I don’t want to simply except what’s happening, as though my feelings have no weight.
I don’t don’t want to have the pain of telling loved ones it is no more.
I don’t want to be vulnerable.
I don’t want to cry tears over a heartless soul.
I don’t want to analyse my every move.
Blame myself for any mistakes I made.
I don’t want to feel alone,
I don’t want to, no longer have a home.
I don’t want to punish myself for days on end,
I don’t want to just pretend, that you can be just my friend.
I don’t want to repeat a cycle.
I don’t want small talk.
I don’t want fake.
I don’t want basic.
I don’t want boring.
I don’t want Mundane.
I Don’t want, you will do.
I want to feel love that I know I deserve,
That ignites a fire within me.
That runs though my body like my favourite song.
I want to feel mystical.
Priceless.
Someone’s treasure,
Hidden within their depths
The X carved right there on your heart.
And not to be discarded so flippantly ever again.
I want it all.