When my fears become reality
When my last tear is shed
All I could think is of to be dead
Watching myself give in
Letting my demons win
That’s how life will end
The truth is nobody cares
You lost the only ones who did
The two people who loved you so
Seeing what you did as kid
Praying it would never happen
Wrong person at the wrong time I guess
Going through sleepless nights
Times you are so tired but can’t sleep
Lying wide awake staring at the walls
Then the days you want to sleep
When you have no energy at all
Depression calls and you make the fall
Knowing your not good enough
Nobody ever showed you that you was
Nobody stayed long they all moved on
Dark circles the colors of purple and black
Stretch marks on your body cause your fat
Baggy shirts and hoodies to hide the weight
What more could the truth reveal
The fact your trauma effects you every day
Then realizing what you wanted was thrown away
When the waves crash
And the thoughts push through
I promise life was anything but true