Spent most of my life living with a bully
And no matter what I do I can\'t get out
My mom says we\'re still sisters
But the truth is hate, it gets the best of me
Mom has done her things to make me feel inadequate
But my sister is on a whole nother level
Making my life harder without moving a finger
Is it me?
Should it be me who is sorry?
For all of the stress my own anxiety
Should it be her that is sorry?
For everything she\'s ever done
Is it her that\'s won?
Because I know I\'ll never say sorry
For being myself to anyone
I could never say sorry
For feeling, sad, angry, or happy
I would never say sorry for
All the pain and the worry
It\'s not her fault that I am who I am
Someone I love, who doesn\'t hold back
But I hate her so much that my bubble
Was perfectly designed just to keep her out
I hate her so much my mind has concocted a plan
To avoid confrontation and regrets about violence
And thoughts I cant silence
Cause I know I\'ll never be sorry
For not being angry that I\'ll never lie
And I
Don’t wish you were sorry
Because it still wouldn’t change how I feel
Cause I\'ll always feel how i feel