Pardon my partum

Pardon my partum

It’s seems as if the day they cut the cord between me and you there’s been a disconnect

Ever since that day I’ve wept

Tears of sadness but some were joy

I couldn’t believe I had another little boy

I thought I could love him the same

but I didn’t

I thought I could hold him the same

but I wouldn’t

I thought I could hug/kiss him the same

but I couldn’t

I love him but can’t show it, and I think he knows it.

It’s not his fault I should say, his dad made me this way

He made me feel like I was nothing

When I just gave him the most precious gifts in the world

but that was my fault for not realizing I was worth more than gold and pearls

Your mind, body & soul change after birth

And so does your value of worth

You become self cautious of

your body

Your moods

Your personality

Your hair

and even your man

You feel like you’ve given your all just to lose it all in the end

I have days when I’m happy

I have days when I don’t want to exist

I have days to myself

I have days when I’m missed

I have days where I won’t share a whole pizza with no one else

So Pardon my partum, If I cry on Lion King

Pardon my partum, if I cry cause they’re out of ice cream

Pardon my partum, if I cry cause the sky is blue

Pardon my partum, if I decide to be done with you

Pardon my partum cause no one can tell you how to feel when you dealing with shit this real.

Pardon my partum cause this is how it feels when you’ve hit the bottom and you’re tryna make light of the pain just to get some rain