Sleeping for days
Sleeping all night
Never awake to see
What your really doing to me
As each day passes
I’m wanting you more and more
Craving sleep like its a drug
Seeing how it all effects me
Losing track of time
Sleeping life away
It’s not me
I’m just not ok
I try to explain the best I can
But if you’ve never seen it
You wouldn’t know
Like I know first hand
The feeling of drowning
No energy at all
People never question
Until the end makes the fall
If you’ve never had it
Don’t act like you have
It’s not a fucking joke
We can’t help it’s something we have
Joking and teasing
It’s always around
You make it worse
Just kidding around
I’m trying my best
But it’s something nobody sees
Your words and actings
Hurt but it’s nothing you see
Feeling like your never good enough
Like you’ve been put on the earth to die
I would saying everything will get better
We all know this is nothing but a lie
Therapy don’t fucking work
If anything it makes it worse
Judgement and having to explain
While trying not to say every single thing
Keeping your thoughts inside
Hoping you don’t say the wrong things
Trying to force a smile even on the worst days
Telling yourself every day it’ll all be ok one day
The day you realize your finally alone
Nobody to message or simply call
That’s when everything will consume
Late nights are the worst for me and you