My hands are still shaking from the panic attack
my ears are still ringing from the shame
I\'m still wincing from the pain
beating on the walls, the voices in my brain
trying to calm me down but Im standing out in the rain
and it hurts to know
that I\'m on the cusp of letting go
it hurts to know
that the words never really flow
and my heart wants to up and leave me alone
my heart wants a new home
My brain wants someone who will listen
and my soul just wants someone better
When they leave
all that remains
is a lifeless body
that can never be saved
My biggest fear consists of smaller ones
a million little doubts, together as one
A daunting and ridiculously naive,
a little girl that looks like me and shes crying
Staring into space, but look there\'s her mom and she\'s sighing
\"Why can\'t you be normal?\" \"Why can\'t you be great?\"
leading her to think that she should change
a little girl that\'s been alone
no one is coming to save her
a little girl that\'s on her own
but surrounded by people that claim to love her
This little girl, sad and isolated
deprived of satisfaction, but never violent
A little girl that seems to be evil\'s personal target
A little girl, that graduates next year but still feels 5 years old
A young woman, A young adult, that feels like a little girl