let me tell you a little story about my bestfriend, mariah
5’6, blonde hair, but she’s a little tired
a little tired of her build
tired of the body she\'s in
she was ten years old duck taping her stomach in
body dysmorphia is serious it’s a real disease
it’s not something she can stop, its truly what she sees
she was walking around high school damn near starving herself
she hid it so good no one knew she needed help
it all stemmed from sister
not that it was her fault
mariah wanted her body, she wanted what she saw
softballs the only reason that she even ate at all..
she knew exactly what she needed, to not pass out, to keep her little secret
starting the morning off with some oat meal and coffee
coffee takes away the hunger so that she can keep starving
getting the body she wants down to skin and bones
feeling perfect in her skin when she doesn\'t eat anymore
some peanut butter and a banana is really all she needs, to be awake when we go to practice at 3
it’s not really fair that she has to live this way
eating only a few bites of her scarce dinner that day
then moving in to college with it still in her thoughts
she told her boyfriend about it and he was pretty shocked
he didn’t tell anybody about it, didn\'t help her with it
just told it would pass like the coward he is
if I would have known about it, i would have helped anyway i could
not use it against her like her boyfriend would
meanwhile starving herself would soon come to an end
it started out at party on some random weekend
she got pretty drunk and her boyfriend did too
they said they were pretty fucked up, isn\'t that what college kids do?
mariahs stomach was hurting
i didn’t know at the time
she had a lot more hurting
going on inside her mind
that of a matter of time
i’m damn near holding the knife
i made the mistake that would haunt me the rest my life
\"stick your fingers down throat you\'ll throw up and you’ll be alright\"
\"get the alcohol out\" i thought i was right...
but little did i know i really started a fight
she would binge all her food
shed eat like normal all day
we saw her eating something so we thought it was ok
but we really didn\'t know the food wouldn’t stay for long
its about to come up, go to the bathroom, 1st stall
she stuck her fingers down her throat, now it’s resolved
all the food she ate meant nothing at all
once it came up she continued to dissolve