Its like i am living in a loop
Cause everyday feels the same
There are some laughs
But most time what I see, best ideas in drain
Its like my mind is divided in half
One for the studies and one is to stop from falling apart
Its like i am living inside a game
Some time i am controlling myself
But sometimes my feelings turns into auto play
Nowadays it all feels the same
Some are genuine but most are fake laughs
Its like there is a war going on inside my head
One side supporting darkness and other trying to protect what i once cared too much about
One supporting the lonely peace and other trying to find the peace in the crowd
And in the end just like a real war
No matter who wins, the change just gonna destroy me from inside and outside, equal size
Peace in being lonely, cause there is no one to disturb you
Or the peace in the crowd, where you won\'t get left for even a minute and full of cheerful sounds
Peace in talking with yourself
Or the peace where you wont have to talk to a shelf
It\'s upto the time, thats where the answer lies
But one thing is for sure
Whoever wins, you gonna loose something from deep inside
It might be something you once thought as a unique part of you
Or something that people thought and liked you for
But just know that, it\'s changing for the good
You dont have to fear, cause it will change you into your true self instead of lump of wood