In the company of stars I feel for you
A pitiful glare, red moon against the dark sky
In a world where time does not exist
Only fools, only pleasure
We row towards the deafening thunder
The howling magnitude of gold and blood
I don\'t know why
I hide behind a facade of pretentious words
Like I\'m trapped under a sea of chains
Trying to breathe with glitter in my lungs
It never goes away, insatiable lust
I light candles, dying like a withered rose
By a table of flowers
Smoking cigarettes, dreaming of better
Drowning in green rivers
I am the student
Licking the blood from your knuckles
Giving spare change to homeless men
Praying at nightfall, I wake up alone, bones filled
With hope and regret
A spark of desire in my eyes
I tell myself today is different
But I\'m spinning out of control
In those windswept moments of despair
Our inflamed hearts meander
Back and forth like some kind of messenger owl
But we remain wild, anchored to the afterglow of perfect goodbyes
Painting each other in perfect blue skies
Painting each other in a web of distant lies
Compulsive repetitions like the caw of a raven
I thought of the truth as a unicorn, as an orange tree
Making up words like rain-sprout, pure-truth, blue-drift
The foliage of October
Passing by like a birdsong
I remember I saw you in the coffee shop
A cactus
A newspaper
Squeezing into spaces we don\'t fit
Living in places we are not welcome
I come back to you
Stockholm syndrome with drugs
A quiet rebellion in the wilderness
A landscape so desolate and barren and cold that
Nothing can grow or bloom
I run my fingers along smooth textures
Bright colours of hardship soaking into the fabrics of drudgery
When I am feeling as hopeless as my memories
Crying on every street
I remember you like peaceful mornings
Watching the birds shoot over the row of blue houses
I am indifferent, calling out for you and longing
Longing for the things we cannot have.