Tears threating to spill from my eyes, while I rethink this decision a million times
I can\'t let my brother get hurt this bad by me
So I have to make the decision that I can\'t leave
I can\'t hurt anyone in my family more than they already are, I won\'t let them have that huge emotional scar
The attempt I didn\'t even try
I don\'t understand though because I really do wanna die
The feeling of being split between I wanna leave but I also wanna stay
What do I do? I don\'t know so I guess I\'ll just sit here and deal with another stupid day