I look out at the blue sky over the lake
And I remember the snow, the fireworks
The train ride to the museum, the day I turned eighteen
The first time I ever took a drug
The blue pill dissolving on my tongue
Nights in the rose garden, by the sunflower fields
Looking out at the horizon and smiling quietly to myself
The times I lose control and start to slip
And my wasted youth, and my unhealthy habits
Our bodies levitating in dreams
Reminiscing about how we walked to the top of the mountain
And got lost dancing to our favourite song
Like someone broken, someone you can tell your fears to
When you lie down on soft earth
When you\'re feeling like you\'re still a child
Someone to love you when you\'re feeling blue
I remember
The sweet dying explosion of nostalgia
The Halloween I dressed as the Tin Man
The limousine on my seventh birthday
The lithium, the magnolia, the plays, the drama
Jack the Ripper
The waves washing over us, the music
The tiger in the zoo
Painting crocodiles in the countryside
Impressionism in phthalocyanine blue
Throwing up and feeling good
The flowers in your bedroom, the places we went
Just to escape ourselves
The rain on the window, the butterflies in my stomach
The fox, the almonds, the gaudy balloons
The ravens, the seagulls, the storms, the moons
The cabbage, the cat\'s paw, the pawn shop soup
My French teacher, the uninviting seas
The winter, the Sun Pride, little heartbeats of joy
The first time I ever masturbated
Slitting my wrists
Falling to pieces when you left
The movies we watched, being stoned by the meadow
The last time I seen my dad
New Year\'s Eve
The tree swing
The Cheshire cat smile we shared
Melting marshmallows
How we bloomed and cared for each other
Sleepless nights with swollen lymph nodes
The hangovers
The years of laughter
Mom\'s spaghetti
The love
The infection.