Laughing and crying,
It feels as if everyone was lying,
Lashing and tearing,
Death is something we shouldn’t be fearing,
If I close my eyes,
And wait for my demise,
Will it be less painful,
And not as shameful
Yet nobody chooses to listen
Is it true I am not worth missing?
Bleed in emotions and commotions,
Is death something I must inquire,
Emotions burning in a blazing fire,
Wings trying to fly me higher,
Either god or satan will be my admirer,
Is this where my spirit is shattered?
Broken down, beaten and tattered,
Afraid and alone,
Tired and weak to the bone,
Would I have even be known,
Now I’m here, all on my own,
A glimmer of heaven I see,
Yet it\'s always been only me,
Sunset and evening stars,
Leaving me with these memorable scars,
It’s my demise,
But still I rise,
Yet here. knowing I am dying,
Here I am death, ready and complying,
Take your sickle and strike it through me,
We both know me and life were never meant to be,
The pain I have endeared
But I can not be so sure
Whether the gods will decide if I fly high or sink low
My body’s so cold, like the glistening white snow,
The beautiful snow, painted in red,
It won’t be much longer till I’ll be dead,
Before I go I have one last request,
Surely you could answer me this,
Was I a good person?
Quickly now, before my condition is worsen,
Was I filled with love or filled with hate,
This question has given my soul an unbearable weight,
In the end this is goodbye
So this is where I lie,
In my bed with satin sheets,
Hopefully I can find some peace,
In the end it was always just me
Now it is time for me to fly and be free
Although I don’t really want to leave
it is not an option,
I drank down the decoction
To be rid the pain,
People have always called me insane,
In reality
I don’t have mortality
The angels are waiting for me at the gate
I must face my fate,
Through love and hate
I feel awfully sorrow
I know there will not be a tomorrow
My body has been a cage for so long
My mind filled with fog
It’s time for me to go
I know we have grown apart
Now it is time for to depart
Love, you are not alone,
For it has been shown,
You say your scared,
That it is hard to bear,
Saying goodbye is not easy,
The idea of you leaving makes me queasy,
Knowing it is life,
Your eyes,
They glistened when you saw the stars,
You always said you weren\'t going to go far,
Now I know why,
I don\'t want to say goodbye,
Death is a gift from heaven above,
Maybe soon I can be carried as a dove
Such a beautiful sight
The stars and sun alight
Still I ascend higher and higher
This sudden euphoria,
Bringing me dysphoria
Love so strong and desireful
Yet so far away
Suddenly all I see is grey
My eyes feel heavy
Now that I lay here, taking my last breath,
I now guess this is a matter of life after death.