Merciless within the darkened walls of my melancholy of madness,
My tattered forgotten soul found and lost in a winding maze of sadness.
An internal garden must have wilted my roses as thick Crimson colored beads trickling down,
Such an emptiness within all I am dragging me beneath an undertow with constricted movements I drown.
Leaving a trail of fragmented faded lyrics to find my way back out of a conflicted despair,
Frantically in search of escape from such depths of my mental illness inevitably misunderstood hopelessly i gasp for air.
Lying in a cold sludge of a pungent black silence as various distorted spiraling thoughts seep within my blown collapsing veins,
A symphony of my vulnerable whispers to be saved merely echo through the trencherous storms of an infallible pain.
Memories creep into my conscience like a disease eating away at what\'s left of me to cope,
Terrified of my traumatic replayed past frantically searching for my pain to subside, all I need is a needle and dope.
From this docile grave misery I feel helpless worthless to run, entirely out of corners to hide,
Tangled within my catostrophic self subconscious destruction accelerated in my addiction my existence is a ghost life for me has died.
An overwhelming urgency falls heavily to take the final drop off the ledge of what can no longer comprehend,
A surreal vision of my final peace, I sigh in bliss kissing the Stars as my soul fluently transcends.
Kathryn A Beam