I am so back and forth
like a boat on the waves
as it sways.
Although I am pretty sure I know the way
but I am so afraid.
Why am I so afraid to lose you.
There may have been happy moments
but they have been sandwiched in between lies and distance.
I know the connection between you and me is the same as any other you have.
Just because you have not been authentic does not mean I haven\'t been.
I may be a closed door but I have a lot behind it.
Nothing secretive, only real.
Real pain and sadness I don\'t share with most.
Do you have a door?
You never stick around long enough for either of us to open ours.
Perhaps this is a closed door never meant to open.