Something on me growing bigger
Like a virus infecting the creases in my brain
Choices all coming down to one
I have to stop, just until the virus goes away
Tears threatening to spill, stomach twisting at the thought
The other me knowing that this is wrong
Knowing it’s wrong I have to do it anyway
I cant let this stupid thing grow! I cant! I wont!
Though I have made this decision
I do not know if I have the strength to go through with it
I am a coward.