I suffer loss
My identity slowly crumbling to dust
life playing it’s wicked games
playing the right tricks right off its sleeves
the circus trick had me thinking thinking I had the upper hand
Only to leave me feeling used
my ego utterly bruised
I suffer loss
loss of the girl I used to be
the best parts of me exiled to a point of no return
Life’s tricks the bane of of my life
My head heavy, bloated with so much anxiety
Weighing me down relentlessly as lightning on my brain
My desire being to just live life
but life itself thinks perfect to have me be a clown
Heavily designed in disguise
what beauty is there to life
when it’s two faced
the deadly part of it keeps me captive in its unending misery
needing to spread its venom in my veins
You are my antidote
I always want you near me
To help me find my way back
to some semblance of normality in my life
your love is my antidote
It is enough to dilute this harsh life I live
Modifying its complexities into finer pieces
It’s a path I cannot tread alone
If not cautioned right
I would be swallowing poisons of self doubt and fear
continuously be tricked and trapped
And slowly succumb to drowning in the wells that wish that I disappear
I am relatively weak
it’s a fight I can’t do all on my own
your love is my antidote
It is enough to quell the fears deep rooted in my core
Enough to quell the poisonous thoughts that desire see me lose myself
your love is my antidote
It is enough to be able bear it all and just live life