The heaven we made disintegrated in my fingers
Like sea salt, like the moon\'s goodbye, and I swore it was a dream
The jade of the morning and the flesh between my teeth
How you took my breath, how we loved and lost each other
I watered you as though you were a plant
And I cared for you like you were a candle, the white fog
Seeping into my blue sky
But you sucked on my bones and left me deranged
Like a pillow bursting at the seams
I stitch myself back together just to fall apart again
And paint over the walls when the memory of you lingers
Like the fantasy of being raped.