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so what if i do?

under the open heating vent,

pale sliver of moon winking

down at me where i lay,

tangled in blankets that i

wish were your arms,

i ache

 

deep and deeper in

to my cups,

i find the courage to 

unknot my tongue and

say what i want to say

 

i ache for you,

and there’s a certain poetry

in that, wouldn’t you say?

 

but you deserve more

than a confession 

where whiskey warms

away the trepidation

 

and still, i find that

i don’t want to live

the rest of my life

regretting not having fallen

at least a little bit

in love with you 

 

because i do, ya know

i choose to love you 

on purpose, fate be damned,

i love you on purpose 

 

i do

i do

i do