queer-with-a-pen

holding pattern

i am the chink in

my own armor,

never quite able to

tamp down that flowering

and burning love

 

and if you were

to ask nicely enough,

that gap would become 

a doorway just for you

 

i would paint that

old wooden door in

your favorite color and

leave a spare key 

under the mat

 

because i desire you,

so much that it hurts

sometimes, and not just

because i’m biting my tongue

to keep the flood back

 

because i desire you,

therefore you are immortal,

and you’ll live forever 

in these words that i’ve scrawled

across the walls of my beating heart

 

and isn’t that a beautiful thing,

that no distance,

no storms,

could ever be bigger

than the love i hold for you?