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a matter of \'just\'

my longing kisses with tongue,

hands gentle on the line of my jaw,

fingers tangled in dyed-black hair

 

but i wish these hands 

were yours instead,

and am still trying to 

figure out if that makes

me selfish or simply human

 

i imagine that your hands

would be gentle with

the parts of me that are

still rough around

the edges

 

for you, i’d allow myself

to be handled with care,

maybe even with love,

and wouldn’t that be nice?

 

we could learn to better

love ourselves through

loving one another

 

and i do think that would

be nice, actually, to wake up

to you and make coffee just

the way you like it, because that 

was something you’d

trust me with

 

and you, just on your own

make my heart sing

like it never has before

 

or, whatever

what do i know,

i’m not a poet,

i’m just in love