Loving you is exhausting. I’m tired of not knowing what I can and cannot say. What’s going to piss you off today? You never open up unless I beg you to. I love you so much and I notice when you’re hurting. I just don’t know how to fix it. It’s like we’re in a loop. The loop of trials and tribulation, so why can’t I leave? We both know we are no good for each other. Everyone tells us. You’ve had so many chances to leave, so why didn’t you? Why do you continue to stay when I do nothing but drag you down ? I’ve fucked up so many times, and I admit that, but I can’t take it back. I regret ever meeting you. Not because I hate you, but because I’ve done nothing but give my all for you, and still continued to mess us up. The thing is, it’s not just me . You keep me close enough for me to still have hope for us. It’s dehumanizing. I love the man who never shows up. I love the man who says all the right things, but his actions are all wrong. I love the man that was once mine, but is now too far gone.