I am so sad
I want to cry it all out
But I\'ve cried too much recently
And there are no tears left
Only a couple of miserable tears
I wonder if I stab myself
I will cry from the sharping pain
Or will I be immune to it
Due to my numerous pain vaccines
I drew red lines on my wrists
And it tingles
Like it is telling me to pick up that scissors
To do it
To cut myself
It will feel better
I will be happier
I\'ve tried seeking help from all around me
But I realised everyone was going through their own pain
How can I be so selfish to add to their burden?
I will be a good little girl, I promise.
I will stay silent. I am strong. I can be independent.
I will get through this myself
And if I don\'t, you know you can find me lying in the pool of my own blood