punched the sandbag till my hands were numb.
now I can\'t even make a fist to fight anymore.
went to the gym for exorcism.
all those demons are smashed down.
they don\'t stand a chance do they.
I\'m sinking down below the surface on my own.
the longing sensation on my skin as the water envelops me.
it feels like I\'m being sucked in.
the agony and sorrow will never leave.
the light at the end of the tunnel doesn\'t exist.
just who told you there is an end to it.
my mind is that of a pathetic clown.
can\'t stand sane so going high.
just to take a dive and jump down.
can\'t make this stress leave my body.
inducing more self harm on my body.
what\'s the harm in it, in a few days it\'ll be forgotten.
you don\'t need to know.
that I\'m in the same pain as last year.
that despite of trying so hard to get over it, another nightmare.
you don\'t need to know.
that I can\'t even bawl my eyes out under my blanket.
the crybaby who used to cry all the time dried out in no time.