H. Jordan

imposter syndrome

Do they not know

Are they not aware 

Their expectations are based on lucky plays and potential 

Potential potential 

A million nickels in my pocket 

If I had a nickel every time I heard someone say,

“She has potential”

Every time I search for a reason to excuse my mistakes

So they won’t see me for the fraud I am

How many years have I gone through this

How hard have I worked for this 

And yet I don’t feel I deserve this

See my shaking hands

Watch the adrenaline carry my body

Watch me go over a million different mistakes

And look to others for the validation I cannot give myself