willowthewisp

October (between friends)

You hold my hand.

 

(Well, at least that’s how we say it goes—)

 

I type out plans, then go back

to fix the way it flows. I welter

for a way of being cool, captivating

give it all I’ve got in case it’s not

just fancy fabrication.

Can I say…

 

(just between friends?)

 

I lie awake and read back your words

when the conversation ends. I want the

ebbs and flows and brazen rhymes; I’d

take sleepless hours, toss and turn to have

all your thoughts intwist in mine—

 

Don’t let them let me go.

 

It’s late again.

And though time is kind of getting old,

I’ll romanticize it as I listen to a storm unfold

and I look at you in a pious hue; you know

I ache to crawl right through that screen,

to make it lead into a place where

you could touch me... yet

 

For a bold and brittle moment, 

I look out and dare

to the vapour and spray:

“come and take me away—”

 

Then it cracks.

But you’re still there, so I say

“Will you stay and watch it pour?”

“I’m not afraid of a little rain,

it’s just lonely on my floor…”

 

as all the dreams of October

bleed into just fallI want to climb

over an old garden wall where a

woodsman and bluebird would say

where to go, but I’m not a cartoon,

and that’s not mine to know, so

 

just tell me you want me.

I don’t need a dance—

I’ll write what I picture

and long for a glance

as I’m thinking—

 

(I’m thinking…)

 

forgot to

keep blinking,

just stared

to eternize this

quasi-romance.