I\'m upset, I\'m hurt, I\'m misunderstood
It\'s a lonely and horrible feeling to be
abandoned, ridiculed, judge by others
connections all around
but knots and tangles obstruct my-
my friendships
relationships
and colleagues.
People are trying to break me
Exploiting my openness
My filterless aesthetic,
Exploiting my insecutrities.
The void in my soul
a ditch
I keep getting trapped
Trapped
trapped in a cave, crushing in.
Gasping for breath
Seeking the light
Needed fresh air
Drowning in a pit of suffocation and desperation
She pulled the trigger
snatched me by the back of the head
A face plant to my past
A bullet of words, a curve ball --
caught by my childhood abuser
thrown back at my face.
Invisible bruises
Invisible scars
tattooed, branded to my soul -
Tattoos on my forehead
warning people
steering people away
steering me on a path
back to the ditch of despair and lonliness.