I’m not who you thought I’d be
Getting here has been exhausting
Looking back I’m starting to feel free…
I’m not who you wished me to be
Constantly fighting off bad memories
The ones only few close to me got to see…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
Living in plain sight yet never to be seen
Wishing I had the powers to foresee …
I’m not who you wished me to be
Music playing while smelling the rain in the breeze
Emptiness of my heart makes it hard to breathe…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
Hunting for truths that I may never be told
Afraid of losing the ones I’ve grown to know…
I’m not who you wished me to be
Everything’s working against me
Maybe it’s not as simple as it seems…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
This young heart sings to it’s own beat
An old soul that’s floating downstream…
I’m not who you wished me to be
Striving to be everything for everybody
Only to feel like I’m a nobody…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
Trying to finish something I’ll probably never complete
Disappointing each of you endlessly…
I’m not who you wished me to be
Being strong isn’t all it’s cracked up to be
These eyes have seen so many things…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
As quick as I fix things they dissolve in front of me
Feeling like I’m not as good as I think…
I’m not who you wished me to be
My life has been nothing like I dreamed
It’s been everything but nothing like it seems…
I’m not who you thought I’d be
Constantly changing so I don’t repeat
This vicious cycle of me being me…