Phoenix
From the ashes
Arose a girl
Not quite known
She has a spine of steel
A look that can kill
She’s done with the pettiness
And the games
She won’t play
She’s tired of being taken
Advantage of
Being told what to do
Who she is
What she wants
Her tongue gets coated
In quicksilver
She’s not quite sure she recognizes
The mirror
But that’s no matter
Because one thing is for sure
She’s done being her
The girl who kissed the ground people walked on
Who tried her hardest to please
Who would drop down for you
Onto her knees
No, that girl can no longer be
Survival is what that girl was used for
But I am done surviving
I want to live
To be happy
I am done hiding behind pain
And kindness
Thinking it can keep me safe
Thinking that if I give enough
People will stick around
Well if you can’t handle me
If you don’t want me
You\'re not worth pleasing or having around
She’s done feeling lost
Done feeling like shes not enough
She’s found her worth
I’VE FOUND MY WORTH
You\'re words and inaction
I will no longer let hurt
Take a long look at the pictures you have
Because that’s the last time you’ll have seen that girl
For when we speak again
It will not be a meek docile girl you find
But a young woman
With a spine of steel
A heart encased in armor
Still soft and loving though
Forgiving but not allowing of repetition
Loving but also going after what she deserves
She knows what she wants
She knows what she needs
She was just too scared
Too hesitant
But no longer will she wait
For people to strike the match
Because in her burns a flame
Hotter than the sauna of the underworld
A flame so piercingly bright
Her eyes are aglow
Watch out doubters
Disbelievers
Tormenters
Demons
Because now
Now
I know
Who I am
What I want
What I deserve
I may get lost
But will not stay perturbed
I am so sick of this
I’ve put myself through
But most of all
I’m sick of you
Fear you will no longer
Rule me
If people want to leave
Abandon
Let them
They clearly aren’t worth it
If they don’t want to work for me
Love me
Cherish me
Then goodbye
For I no longer have time
I am becoming
What I want
What I know I am
This fire
Shall never be put out again
So watch out
This is a final warning
For those who thought they could keep
Ignoring
Here comes a phoenix
Rising from my ashes
I’m done being told
All these lies
“Lessons”
For you have never been able to reach inside
Of who I am
To that flickering flame
And now it burns
Oh, it burns
So very bright
So watch out because now
I shall own the night
My wings are fanned
My eyes aglow
I hope you said goodbye
Because I am no longer
The hurt girl you’ve known
No, now I must make a dramatic
Scene so you can learn
I’ll still be a team
But not a pushover mind you
I know who I am and
What I’ve come to do
I feel the roaring flames
Like a cold distant wind
They are calling and I’m done
Ignoring them
They tell me
I’m
Strong
Worth it
Loved
Amazing
Determined
Beautiful
Desirable
So if you think I have to have you
You are wrong
But I think you’ve known it all along
Now it’s time for me to leave the shadows
The pain I’ve crutched on for so long
Now it is time I sing my song
Like a phoenix rising
I will become