These emotions are back
But did they ever truly leave?
Am I safe?
Is it okay this time?
Or
Am I going to get ripped apart again
I am
Unsure
Scared
But not really
I am stronger
Smarter
Wiser
Than I was before
But
Love is such a fickle
Thing
Its sense
Makes none
Time has no hold
All that matters
Is the next
Hit
The next
Moment
Of togetherness
I feel myself slipping
Back into that golden haze
For you
But do you actually want me to?
Or are we a circus act?
One of us the net
The other is the high walker
I don’t want to fall
Don’t want to be hurt
But
Nothing compares to how
Right it feels to be
Near
With
By you
I feel like an addict
You are my drug
A scary but fulfilling drug
Sometimes
I feel like I know you
Love you
Want you
But others
You feel distant
Gone
Not near or with me
You’re leaving me
In the wind
Leaving me to the stars
But then
You return
I know not what to do
Or what we are
I want an answer
A straightforward path
But I know you cannot give me that
However,
I am taking the chance
To fall again
Being careful this time
Letting you lay the pieces
Because after all
You have always been able
To call me, mine