I need you
I want to talk to you
I’m hurting and all
But I know talking to you won’t heal me from this pain but it will surely lesson it
I surely don’t want to call you and make a fool out of my self
You keep on showing that you are interested you want me but the efforts is low
I can’t risk the strong barrier I have placed in front of me just for you when you aren’t giving me your all
There is never been a single time that you ever fulfilled your promise
You always say you will call back but never did you when you finished what you were doing
You are totally breaking me apart piece by piece and it hurts so deep that it’s unbearable sleeping and waking up each day just dreaming of you is torture
Cause there is nothing I can do about it
I can’t control my dreams but I can control my actions
I want to stop thinking of you before I sleep but I can’t and it hurts
Cause I’m not sure you really feel like the way I do
Yess you do kind of show it but itz not enough and itz killing me
I might soon reach my limit if care is not taken
Cause even an elastic band has a limit when stretched
How much that of a feeble heart which yearns for you each day
It aches ,it hurts
So badly that just watching you go by your daily life each day kills me
Seeing that you are okay without me
Makes me know that perhaps I ain’t worth you time and energy
You have other priorities than me
Perhaps I’m just your plaything when you are bored
I wish I wouldn’t think this way but there is nothing I can do
You can’t just call me and tell me you expect me to be in love with you
When you don’t know how deeply I am already
Itz literally just funny
I always be there in my thoughts do you really mean it
Should I tell you I already have
Are you going to think I’m joking or playing you for a fool what at all
I’m helplessly in love with you for no reason
Perhaps it there was a reason I could literally find another person for that
But no
Not at all
There is none
Why do I have to suffer for the past mistakes of your ex
Tell me what should I do
I need commitment cause without it,
Everything is useless
We basically haven’t even started dating but here I am telling people we are
I even told my mom about it
But not exactly that I am dating tho
Just told her I might be bring an Ewe man home 😂😂
Anytime I am on call she keeps on laughing is it the Ewe man and I would be like nah mom
Going to end it here cause I can’t seem to stop just running on a whole lot of emotions here
I yearn for you so badly
Do you even know how happy I am when ever your name pops up on my screen
I’m literally the happiest person on earth