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Him

I open my snap just to see if he responded

Delivered for 20 mins is all I see

But am I really bothered

To him I am just a piece of flesh

Waiting to tear into me like an animal

His eyes filled with desire and he cannot contain himself

This is not what I want and yet the word “no” is at the tip of my tongue

I cant quite spit it out

As if I am scared to lose something

But what am I really losing

The guy who sees me only for my looks

If he took one look at me he would know I’m into books

Yet he doesn’t know my favorite color or what makes me smile

But I know every small detail about him from the cockroach he named to his number that’s ready for me to dial

But why am I so scared to let go you may ask

Well because I’ll lose the guy who I saw one day at dusk

His hair flowing in the wind and his nice little grin

Although he says he is interested is he really

Or is his interest in me just silly

I hide my tears back every time I talk

Because I am making an effort just to gawk 

And yet I cannot give up my passion that maybe one day he’ll be mine

But it’s too late cause all the girls call him fine