I open my snap just to see if he responded
Delivered for 20 mins is all I see
But am I really bothered
To him I am just a piece of flesh
Waiting to tear into me like an animal
His eyes filled with desire and he cannot contain himself
This is not what I want and yet the word “no” is at the tip of my tongue
I cant quite spit it out
As if I am scared to lose something
But what am I really losing
The guy who sees me only for my looks
If he took one look at me he would know I’m into books
Yet he doesn’t know my favorite color or what makes me smile
But I know every small detail about him from the cockroach he named to his number that’s ready for me to dial
But why am I so scared to let go you may ask
Well because I’ll lose the guy who I saw one day at dusk
His hair flowing in the wind and his nice little grin
Although he says he is interested is he really
Or is his interest in me just silly
I hide my tears back every time I talk
Because I am making an effort just to gawk
And yet I cannot give up my passion that maybe one day he’ll be mine
But it’s too late cause all the girls call him fine