VARSITY STRUGGLE
Chasing for education it’s not easy
You either lose your mental health
Or your education
I haven’t slept in the past 5 days
It ain’t easy because
I want to sleep but I can’t
Education is staring at me
I wake up in the middle of the night
Thinking about the decision
I have to make
Every time I think of quitting
I think of my family
It depends on me to progress to another level
But here am I struggling to even control my mental health
Anxiety, depression took over my life
Don’t even recognize myself
Insomnia has made itself welcomed in my house
Even though I didn’t invite it
Suicidal thoughts be up and down
Running my mind driving me crazy
Everything is due
Tests every fucken day
Slowly losing my mind
Every single day
I even look like a hobo on a daily basis
Because its even hard to take care of myself
Bathing myself seems like a huge task to do everyday
I am a dead walking person now
Don’t even recognize the person
Who was happy coming to varsity
Thinking that finally things were going to change
Little did I know that varsity was hell on earth
A place were I was supposed to get education
Turned to be a place where I got all sorts of mental health issues
Anxiety, depression, insomnia you name them
I don’t know how long I can hold it
Just hope to make it out alive
Of this hell place called VARSITY
abongile