Someone asked why I’m always smiling and happy
I smile to hide what’s really happening
I don’t want people to see me as sad or mad because that’s not a good rep to have
Who would want to be friends with someone who is depressed or has too many feelings to express
So I put them away and hide the truth
I want them to see me for a happy person
The one filled with joy and energy
The one who never has tears on her face
That’s the girl I am
The more it hurts the more I laugh
The smile that you say is so nice is only there to cover my tears
And yet I’m not crying I am still begging for help
The help that I need is just a friend
Someone to tell me it’s okay
But is it really okay if it takes this much work to just show the people a perfect girl
Is it really okay if I’m masking the pain
And if I’m not okay, think about the others
Who are doing the same or even hurting eachother
The ones who take out the pain and are vain
So maybe I’m over exaggerating and my pain is not as significant
And when I express my feelings you don’t believe me because there’s no reason to be sad, my life is all that
But deep inside you can’t see
But in our generation we need help to be genuinely happy
I am not the only one who experiences this and I know it is serious
Maybe we need to all be nicer and think of others
It’s hard to do but maybe we just need to start over
Because our world is a place of only bad things no matter how pretty you make it sound
You can put trash in a gift box and call it good
But on the inside it’s rotting and needs to be disposed of and that’s what’s happening within us
But why can’t anyone see
Because we are so blinded by the fake reality