I am proud of myself
Or at least I’m trying to be
Affirmations swim in my head
Yes I did well in that competition
Yes I had a good practice
Yes I got a good grade
Yes that was a good day
Yes he likes me
Yes I got into a good school
I feel calm and vulnerable and fake all at the same time
I’m trying to be proud of myself
I see that I’m not quite there yet
I look to others to confirm what I hope is true
Yes you did well
Yes you’re smart
Yes you’re pretty
Yes I like you
Its hard right now
But I’m trying
To say that I’m proud of myself