This tiny creature i hold in my arms.
This tiny bundle i gave you life.
I saw you in my belly a few weeks into your life.
I promise then, to love you for the rest of my life.
I see you now and i become overwhelmed.
What once was excitement is now filled with distressed.
At times i cry suddenly without warning.
These sleepless nights have become routine.
I wish to break from it but it’s hopeless.
It pulls me everyday more within.
I spend most of my days away from you
My chest thunders from the thought of failing you
I desperately want to stop feeling like this.
I wish i could say why i feel like this
But nothing makes sense
No one will understand
They all will judge me
Perhaps even report me
I drown in hopes that someone close to me
Will see these changes
Without questioning help me and restrain from judgement
I wasn’t like this before
This just started one day after giving birth
How can i feel this way? When you are my every breath
I love you more than life it self.
I just wish i knew how to get help.
To all the mommies out there struggling with postpartum depression…know that you are not alone.