I remember that autumn day.
I saw his dark hair and brown eyes
I wandered toward him
Speaking to the class I said my favorite show
The one I’ve adored for years
he spoke to me that day about how he loved it too
My eyes wandered I tuned in and next to me seeing him
his black hair
The color stabbed like ink on paper
his eyes gazing at me
Little did I know what that small interaction would omit
We spoke many times after I sat with him
We talked and talked as he got to know me
I got to know him more and more
Hearing about his interests made me so intrigued
Slowly falling for him I did not just once but twice
The slide of rejection knowing you wouldn’t like boys
I would get so happy seeing him
My heart would race
Color would rush to my face
I tried to repress these feelings till they disappeared
“He won’t like you”, I told myself
“Given the past are you ready to move onward?”
It only worked for so long
The feelings were believed to be gone
Were they gone?
Were they hidden away?
I like someone else
“That person I like not him”
Then that day appeared showing me it
The day he \"supported me\" as high school drama reigned on
The comfort you gave me made me realize.
I like him again or did I like him the whole time?
That night I knew I had fallen for him once again
This time more than before
that time I wanted to be with you
I liked you and only you
Your \"kind\" heart drew me in
Your \"caring nature\" and always helping me made me fall more
That day he said he had a secret to tell me
That secret little did I know it was that he had \"fallen\" for me too
He said he \"liked\" me
I told him that I also had a secret
The secret was that I liked him too.
That day he told me his secret and I told him mine
Then the message appeared
“I think I’m ready”
You were ready
My heart glowed at the time
You asked me to be with you
“I would love to”
I wish I didn\'t go with him...
I know this is only the beginning
I am ready this time
but fast forward 3 months,
he left so very soon
Now I remember all that came after that autumn day
Wishing on every star I had never liked him
Now moved on
I am happier this way
I found real love on a lovely spring day
To be continued on that spring day