The rain falls around me
The dark sapphire colour surrounds me
Wind like a dagger brushes through my hair–piercing my soul
Intense thoughts running through my brain
These things I simply cannot contain
Lightning striking in the sky
Thunder clashing nearby
How to calm the storm I do not know
I am too slow in these harsh winds
People say I’m supposed to grow from this
Why must they say that while they are in bliss?
With my sword I mightily fought
But this beast in front of me left me completely distraught
The rain continues to fall
As do my spirits, I no longer stand tall
Through this storm I fight I’m left to a crawl
Tears running down my face
When will God give me grace?
The thick fog and storm clouds lay densely
Around me I fight to see so intensely
I beg and plead for anyone so friendly
Wishing someone please would help me gently
Afraid to utter a word
Afraid to explain the storm
Afraid because they think I’m being absurd
Afraid because they have misheard
Afraid because they have inferred
Afraid because they have not heard
Who would believe me?
So continuous the wind howls
And constantly the rain pounds
The storm rages on
I hear the beast it growls
Someone save me
Someone set me free
I plea
What are my options but to flee?
To give up
To surrender
My best is not good enough
Is it true?
The offender
The storm
Did they win?
Were they too tough?
This monster fear
Consuming all my cheer
The tears
The rain
The pain
The flashbacks
Make their attacks
When I fell in despair
Broken and battered
Abused and alienated
I offered a prayer
Is anyone there?
I searched deep within my soul
I had lost control
What was there to fight for?
Friends and family who did not believe me?
No.
Up there
In the distance
Through the storm
A light
A beacon
Glowing steadily and softly
It had been there all along
It is why I had not given up
Why I could not
Hope