Staring out into space, looking for emotion
Why do I feel numb, just going through the motions
I’m not happy I know that much
But what is this feeling? I’m trying to touch,
Grasping at straws but it’s in vain
Biting my tongue so I can hide the pain
What little love I had in the deepest parts
Was diminished when you destroyed my heart
And I can’t even remember the last time I felt
Happy…
My chest feels so heavy when you’re near
Is this fight or flight, should I run in fear?
I might smile when you crack a joke but I know
This doesn’t last for long because when you show
Those true colors I meet Mr. Hyde.
He’s mean, ruthless, cutthroat and careless
He’s manipulative, angry, sly, and lacks awareness
When I wake in the morning who am I going to meet?
Why can’t I see him for who he really is?
Why can’t I pull off the sheet?
The person I made him out to be doesnt exist.
I’m finding it hard to live here, we can’t coexist
You destroy my vision, you disrupt my peace
I’m praying every night so the pain can cease
But I know I’m not like you, I never will be
I have the scars to prove it, here’s the blood on my sleeve
I know my life’s so much bigger, you see the hope in my eyes
Regret I ever met you, I hate I believed the lies
Can’t find the emotion, and now the end is nigh,
Just gotta push through, it hurts, and I know I’ll cry.