L. B. Mek

If I be remembered let it be: Kindness that names me

 

 

If I be remembered

let it be, Kindness

that names me

 

 

A famous Poet, a real one from Chile

not a hypocrite of poetic illegitimacy, like me

titled a cherished work: ‘If you forget me’

how bold, I thought

such assured lines of resplendent sincerity

and of self-worth, dipped

in magnitude of owned fragility

 

I of jealousy, read

swallowing lumps of veracity

branded by poetic poignancy, looked away

but came scurrying back

to once more, delve fumes of ignominy

counting syllables

to life’s lullabies of disparity

 

for, if I could have scribbled

of similar

after-I’m-gone, sentiments

its title, alone

deprecating, my traversed slalomed cliff edges

finding tethers to belonging’s equity, ever wanting

 

skidding - when stopping, would have been heroic

squealing - when stoic restraint, would staved-off regret

surrendering - when fighting, would’ve given existence

meaning

enveloped in horror scenes of rear-view mirror

burnt bridges.

 

No, if I penned

a work of self-remembrance

I would

beg for mercy, as a title

and implore, any

to remember me

if at all

 

with what pitied forgiveness

they had to spare

yet another

wannabe poet, sharing

an Icarus fate

finding dreams, too far

out of reach…

 

 

© L. B. Mek

July 2020