Do you ever think of the hard hitting stuff
about your life?
I’m just thinking about
how lonely I have been
and will continue to be,
and how I want to meet new guys,
but also how very introverted I am
and how I don’t want to use dating apps.
I never rush.
I take an excruciatingly long time
to warm up to people.
The thing is
I’ve been single for a long time now
and it has never really bothered me to this extent.
It’s not like other people are
shoving their relationships in my face.
I guess I feel incomplete at the moment,
like I’m hollow.
I’m starting to miss the small things a relationship brings
like affection
and someone I can talk to about anything
and everything.
When I look back on past relationships
It’s not with fondness.
I think of the bad,
awkward moment
and why we broke up
and the things I don’t like about them.
I’m broken when it comes to relationships.
If I’m being honest,
I’ve never gone on a date.
Like before becoming committed to a guy.
It’s sad.